Moments after Blessing died

Today has been a day of emotional ups and downs as we strive to grasp the mystery of death and how it affects us as a family. Though I knew that the day would probably come soon, I did not expect Blessing to leave us so soon. Her death has taken the wind off the sail and then, there is the calmness of being in the presence of God. The battle is over, the victory is won, as Paul asks, "death, where is your victory, death, where is your sting?" Eternal life wins over death.

On behalf of my family, thank you for your prayers and support. They mean so much for me and my family, especially for my mother who truly appreciates it. It was heartbreaking to talk with mom soon after Blessing died. Nothing can ever prepare one for the death of a loved one even though we may know that it is coming. I thought that going through dad's sudden death was enough shock, but this one is even more painful. After I spoke with mom, I took out one of my picture albums and started going through it, and th etears rolled down as I watched my beautiful sister and thought of all that she had gone through in this life. I am encouraged by the reality that she is now enjoying "eternity with God." I am sure she and Denis will get to meet and that someday we all will get to be there with them. Ironically I asked at mass last Sunday if anybody wanted to go to heaven, and all raised their hands, but when I asked if anyone wanted to die, none did. While it may not only be as a result of not being sure how eternity feels, I think that the realization of the pains those left behind feel is strong enough reason.


I needed that time immediately after the news to talk with family and try to calm everyone down and for us to seek some healing. We prayed over the phone and commended her soul into the hands of God. It was probably the send most difficult prayer I ever said, first was for my father. The pain can be deeper than words can explain. While our pains may not be taken away, the love of family and friends diminishes that. It has been an emotional roller-coaster but it is expected. All of you who have gone through such loss (God's gain) understand what it feels like. Thanks for your words of encouragement.
My biggest pain now is talking with Blessing's Kevin and trying to help him understand that mommy still loves him even though he will not be seeing her for a long time. I know he understands the concept of angels and so "mommy is his special angel." I believe that children as well as adults go through the grieving process and each one adjusts and copes according to her/his capacity. Please keep Kevin in your prayers as he will have to grow up without the love of his mother, but not without our love. We see Blessing in him and we love him as much as we love her.